5 and a half to go...

As the time draws nearer, I'm becoming more emotional & much much more clumsy than I've been for the last month or so. My tummy has become the landing-place of any crumbs / drips that may drop! I have to consciously reposition crockery out of the way of bumping..! Someone wrote on a blog about the third trimester a few little things that I can identify with:

• Rolling over in bed is a task that requires counting out loud. 1,2,3 GO!
• Picking up something off the ground requires preparation and thought.
• You select your shoes based on which would be the easiest to put on.

Licia phoned me on Skype today & I saw her sweetest chubby little boy when he woke up. Licia looked absolutely beautiful: I'm not sure how to describe it other than that she seemed to be glowing and radiant, even though she said she's sleep-deprived. How wonderful nature is to give us the precious gift of becoming a mother!!

I look at babies & birth videos & I somehow don't feel as though I can identify with them. It is not my experience. The babies are not the little child that is growing inside me. I see mothers and daughters & I do not know how it will be when our little star arrives & I get to be the mother & she gets to be my daughter.

Will she know that although I have not "chosen her" - as one sifts through options & chooses something, with all the reasons ranging from necessity to simply wanting the item - but that her father & I have chosen each other, and that we have chosen to have a child if we are blessed with one...and that we waited a long time for her to be the one who was chosen for us to love, raise, give whatever opportunities we can...and teach - all we know. That she is the one chosen to enrich our own experience of being human beings by us watching & experiencing her from the first scan....until the day that we are separated when it is our time to go...

How special is this? All I know, is that I do not know the depth of it, beyond that it is deep... deep... deep... and we've only touched down just below the surface...